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I really wanted a banana for breakfast....I started out in hendersonville...drove through Starbucks for my morning grandee overly sweetened earl grey...."do you have a banana?" I waited...."No mam...we have a wonderful blueberry muffin!" said the voice over the intercom......"no thanks". Panera will have fruit....right? WRONG. So I thought oh well I will have time to get one in Nashville before work! I pulled in to the new green hills shopping center...got out of my jetta rental ( my bug is in the shop ) and walked to Providence Bread. They didn't have fruit either.....oatmeal.........no.............OK.....orange juice?????? I bought an interesting looking bottle of what could have been orange juice.....i think it was orange drink and club soda.....blah! So I decided to walk to whole foods...but then I stopped.....in front of POSH. I love the clothes there! There was a cute dress in the window....I wanted it....I just got my paycheck.....$200.00 was the price......I went in and felt the fabric...they had a 2 and a 4.....perfect....i will just try them both on and see which one.........( remember those old cartoons....when the angel and devil version of the character was on each shoulder...well imagine two versions of me of each shoulder )
Angel: "Do you need this?"
Devil: " yes"
Angel: "what will it accomplish?"
Devil: " looking cute"
Angel: " $200 would pay for food for a homeless person and meet the needs of people around you"
Devil: " shut up"
Tegan: " dangit"
Salesperson: " would you like me to start a dressing room for you?"
Tegan: " No thanks"
God has been dealing with me lately....about what he expects of me. I'm going to the dream center....awesome....but what am I doing before I get there? Existing? I'm just a good christian girl....living a normal christian life. WRONG and WRONG. I am not good and I am not living a normal christian life. The things that are often out of the ordinary are the things that should be normal for the christian.....like "acts Christianity"......the funny thing is the people in acts were under the new covenant....just as we are so why is my life so different from theirs? Lack of faith? Lack of time? Lack of love? Lack of action? Probably all of these and more...this is what I've realized.....deliverance is normal, healing is normal, serving others is normal! Why wait for one week in a summer under the ground of Youth camp or missions trip to make these things a normal day activity? In Luke 13:10-17 the ruler of the synagogue becomes angry with Jesus for deliverance/healing on the sabbath......ok so here is something I never caught before now....Jesus compares healing and deliverance to feeding/watering livestock! Something that was a normal everyday activity for people at that time....so if we modernize that....it would be like saying healing/deliverance should as normal as filling your car with gas. Healing and deliverance is normal care for a human as is watering is for livestock.
Ok so now serving others...........I have spent 23 years of my life serving myself! Its sickening! What makes me better than that homeless man by the riverfront? Nothing! Does God love me more? NO! What makes me different? Well for one....what makes me different is I know who I am in Christ....I have been adopted into God's family and am now a daughter of the King. Taking my place in the family means I have a responsibility to serve, to love, to heal, to deliver, to unbind the bound..................oh to only see people as God does! What would we see??? People who Jesus died for.....walking around bound in chains, blindfolded walking into death, demons oppressing and possessing the ones God longs to know! Here I am with the key to their problems....the remedy to their illness and yet I choose not to share it. Would I rather spend $2oo on a dress or instead use it to minister and meet the needs of the lost, blind, sick, bound and rejected? My prayer is now truely.....God give me your heart....your eyes....let your love pour out of me! Thank you for your grace when I fall so short so often!
This all started with a song...of course....thats how things always start with me.....there is a brandon heath song out....it got me thinking...which lead to conviction then to lots of prayer and now hopefully to lots of action. :-D
i know the text is messed up....i don't know how to fix it! lol
ReplyDeleteHey, if you ever need someone to take a look at the code and tidy up, I'd be glad to help!
ReplyDeleteTeg!
ReplyDeleteGreat to read this, it's so good! Haha, reminds me of what happened in LA!
How cool it is that God is personally showing you this! I pray that you treasure it, believe it, and that it would bear much fruit.
I'd like to chime in... As God always told the Israelites, "Remember the Lord." Personally, it's so easy for me to be shown and understand something like this (a revelation of truth from God), but, I wonder... According to Jesus, are his words "abiding in" me (or you, or anyone for that matter...)? We know that his word abides in us when it changes us-- as we behold him (his word), we are transformed, from glory to glory!
May his word truly abide in us.
Great to READ that you are looking to him.
Call me for the giveaway nights...