THE GIMMIES
i used to love the Bernstein bears....I collected the books in fact....they were a super cool bear family that lived in a tree :-) one of my personal favorites was a book called the gimmies. In the book the gimmies was a bad thing.....brother and sister bear were being greedy and wanted everything in sight. I feel like I have the gimmies in a good way or so I told God today. Its not for materialistic things.....its for more of him. Gimmie more conviction, gimmie more love, gimmie more revelation, gimmie more of your heart, gimmie more passion, gimmie more joy, gimmie more peace, gimmie more focus, gimmie more power, gimmie more truth...........gimmie gimmie gimmie....and he does. Its really cool. i don't know why I acted so shocked when God answers prayers. Matt 7:7 tells me you will answer and yet I'm always surprised. So amazing how God wants me more than I want him. He is waiting to reveal more to me all the time! Let me fall more in love with you!
THE PRINCE AND THE PROSTITUTE
This is something God showed me after lots of prayer........there was this women balled up on the ground in shame....she was wretched ....everything about this women was awful. She was a prostitute, she was ugly, she was loathed by all, she was completely evil and foul from the inside out....she deserved death.....I watching...wanted her to die. Then a prince came...I knew he was a prince because he was wearing a crown and he was the most radiant person I had ever seen....surely he would kill her....but he didn't....he picked her up, dried her tears, held her tight and then he gave her a crown. I realized finally that girl was me.....and that's Jesus. " I have made you Worthy even though you were unworthy . I have made you righteous even though you were unrighteous, I have made you pure even though you were filthy. I have made you beautiful even though you were ugly, I have given you life even though all you deserved was death. I have made you able to stand and stand you will." Even though I may not be a prostitute......I have at times been adulterous to my saviour.....I have allowed myself to be swayed by "lower lovers" .....Matt 16:4, Mark 8:38 and James 4:4.....and just stupid things that I put above so much. Yet Christ lifted me, he saved me, he freed me.........so live like it! He has called me the opposite of what I am and thus made it true! My God, My King, My Saviour, My Hero, My Restorer, My Healer! Oh to only know you more!
PRAYER/RANT
Why do we who belong to Christ insist on looking like the world who does not belong to Christ. Do we not know who we are? We have been grafted in and have become the children of God.....so lets live like it! Let me live like it. If I really love you like I say then I will want to serve you. I do not want to grieve the heart of the one I love. Teach me to be a submissive daughter. Let my heart burn with passion for you....in all I do! Give me a heart for the broken.....teach me to love the ones that no one loves....to want the ones that no one wants. Teach me to be a servant to others.....to be all things to all people. Teach me to be bold. Teach me to be a more loving friend. Teach me how to be a respectful, submissive and loving wife. Let me be sensitive to your spirit, give me the strength to hold others hands up. Let me lose myself!!!!!! I want to abide in you! Pull out all of my selfish ways let all that remains be the things of you. Teach me to believe you......how life would be different if only I believed exactly what the bible says....nothing else....get all the religion out no matter "how good of a church" it came from....its man made! Let me see others the way you see them. Let my identity be in you and you alone! I don't want to translate the bible into something that suits the way I want to live.....I want to believe you the way you want me to with no opinions of my own......make me more like you and less like me!
So good. I've been thinking a lot about the third rant as well. I'm working on a writing about some similar thoughts. Good read, encouraging.
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